Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Will she remember the Good or Bad days?

Saturday Elyssa woke up from a nap, she wanted milk, I handed her the milk and oh shit she couldn't grasp the cup. Before she took her nap she was 157. I checked her really quick and got a 53. What the hell why didn't I check her BGs first before I took my sweet time getting some milk? Did my brain briefly forget she has diabetes? I got the Smarties, a banana & juice so she could pick which one she wanted. I opened the Smarties and she kept crying saying something like twister or twist it. Ok I couldn't figure it out so Cake Mate gel went into the mouth she licked it, liked it & I gave some more. Well after a couple mins. of my heart dropping, wondering if her BG was raising we finally figured out my darn independent 2yr old just wanted to open/twist open the Smarties wrapper by herself. So she ate 1 Smarties, 1/2 banana, 1 Glucerna mini chocolate bar & 1/2 cup of Soy Milk.
I didn't care if she spiked I just wanted her up and over 100. So when I checked her 30 mins later I expected a 200+ but nope she was at 100. Then I thought crap maybe when I got the 53 I should've checked her again maybe she was lower. She has been really sensitive to insulin the past couple days so who knows. I felt so bad I cried. It took 20mins. for her to actually eat all the stuff. What if in those 20 mins. she plummeted lower? Oh..how all those thoughts, What Ifs, and coulda, woulda, shouldas take a toll on the emotions. I beat myself up for it for about 2hrs then I looked at her. She was dancing and singing. She came over and gave me a big hug and patted my back. It was like she was saying mommy I'm ok don't worry anymore. Maybe I forgot a step, missed a step or ran around crazy like a chicken with my head cut off trying to find sugar in my house but everything turned out okay. I tried my best. Elyssa was okay. I had to let the fear go, take a shot of Tequila or maybe 2 and just shake off all the emotions.
Sunday came we took Elyssa to get her hair cut. I think maybe the DKA & High blood sugars took a toll on her hair especially since she was pulling it out when we got home from the hospital. I chickened out and didn't go as short as I wanted too. It still looks cute but her curls are gone. :'( Then we were on our way to the park and came across a family farm selling jams, eggs & pickeled items. Elyssa got to see horses, goats, rabbits, chickens, quails, peacocks, pigs and a really huge tortoise for free. Elsewhere farms might be common but in Vegas I couldn't believe it. Elyssa is so scared of animals and all insects. She is even afraid of ladybugs it's so sad. The owners said we can take her anytime so she can get use to the animals. We spent so much time there when we got to the park the sun was going down. She hurried and went on the slides, the swings and ran around. She hasn't done that in a long time. All day her BGs stayed between 100-175. It was a great day. I will probably remember all the scary bad days. Hopefully she will only remember all the good days!


  1. Glad she gave you that "pat" letting you know you guys are doing alright. You are ... you know... doing alright... hell, better than alright. Keep it up...and bring her up to VT. We have LOTS of bugs and animals here. LOL

  2. We have had many of those days here too...especially where I run around like a crazy chicken with my head cut off! I'm with Reyna, you are doing a great job caring for your princess and she will always know that. Sending much love and hugs your way today.

  3. not uncommon for hair to thin prior to diagnosis, it'll thicken up.

    You did great! It takes 20 mins for sugar to fix a hypo - so you should always wait 20 mins before retesting after one. In a few months time you will be an expert, I promise. Hypos are a normal part of the raod we have to walk along and they get less scary over time.

  4. Thanks. I would love to go to VT I've heard it's so beautiful...One day.... Those 20 mins. waiting are a killer. She's had lows before but for some reason this time it really messed with my emotions.

  5. You should use a spoon of sugar first and then give food that need to be process it is the best.